heartbreak...................

Life is pretty strange.....
its really weird that how someone yu love can make yu so much sad.

today i feel as if some one took a shotgun and unloaded a lot of rounds into my cold black heart,,,now i lay here in this pool of cold blood....am feeling so cold and alone...like my life has been sucked out of me......

its real sad to say that this pain is killing me inside but its even sadder that this pain is whats keeping me alive......this pain is ripping thru my heart like a razor across a wrist....its tearing me inside....

wat did i do????
where did i go wrong????
dont i love yu tht much???
do i really deserve this???


my mind is now housing a million of these questions...and i dunno where to look for the answer............

all i feel now is fear and sadness and loneliness

i'll forget how to smile after today.......am dying inside...
never did i feel so bad in my life........

i need yu....i want yu by my side.....i need yu to wipe these tears from my face and kiss me and make me forget all the pain and sorrow.....but all i get is ur absence

this sucks so much.....

am floating aimlessly in space now..
if u ever read this......just know tht i feel all these feelings cos i love you so much....

am dependant on yu now.....

without yu am a lost soul....please come to me and teach me how to smile again....i beg yu...

i knw this broken and scarred heart can never be mended but at least pick up the pieces and keep them together...
thats all i ask.....

i want yu

love